i don't know how to explain this feeling.. like you want someone to be happy and in the mean time while the person is happy enjoying, you over the other corner feeling like a total dumb ass.. cause you are all alone in a 4 walled room feeling lonely and want someone to be there to lean on, hug or rest on cause you feel like a total jerk.. the best part is that you are the one who made yourself end up like that... you made the mess and at the mean while you grieve on it.. feel like getting real wasted but think second thought... it won't solve anything..i will only get drunk, hangover, heartache and nothing between the problem and you is solved..
why would someone love to feel like a total jerk and a useless piece of poo.. think poo also better ah.. can fertilize the soil ah, where as i cant..
