try - asher book

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you're the one would you believe me
If I ask you to stay would you show me the way
Tell me what to say so you don't leave me
The world is catching up to you
While your running away to chase your dream
It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
And maybe I'm not ready

CHORUS
But I'm trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

If I sing you a song would you sing along
Or wait till I'm gone, oh how we push and pull
If I give you my heart would you just play the part
Or tell me it's the start of something beautiful
Am I catching up to you
While your running away, to chase your dreams
It's time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
And maybe I'm not ready

CHORUS
But I'm trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

I will try for your love
I can hide up above

2x Huh huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh huh huhhh

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you're the one would you believe me

this song keeps playing in my head and i cant do nuts about it!! but this is a super good song!!

why?

i dont understand why does it have to be like that. i hate what is happening to me la!
discharge thinking can be happy then in the end suffer more WTH! mother like one kind, no money wah really sia.. why like all the haven boys get out all got problem one sia..
wah just now they piss me off la..
i have the reason why i wanna go with my fren to batam lor..then they dont wanna listen then want to make fun of it.. super pissed!
why cant they see the danger of going there without being able to speak indo baharsa thjey think they can handle the ppl there? what bull shit! i got indo fren stay in batam, like that we can stay in his place and also have ppl to guide us around and also he can make sure that ppl dont get to cheat us and all la.. why they always want to act cleaver and like so naive about the things that surround them.. indo just kena problem and confirm got chaos there and we have to be extra careful.. think of that puss!! moreover i dont have enough money..go there do what? a paid for trip is better than ppl paying it for you lor..understand that before you wanna go anywhere..

blogged in a super pissed mood..

B day!!

wow this year birthday not that bad la..
firstly i wanna thank those who had wish me.. THANK YOU PEOPLE!! YOU ALL REMEMBER ME!! YAY!! ok and those forget or dont bother ones..haha never mind i know you all care for me in many other ways.. haha (thick skin)

got a shock ah.. aunty Janice and her family actually brought me a cake along with their daughter!! wonderful of them!!

oh i MUST mention this!! ZARRAH and AUNTY CATHY wished me on skype and sang me happy birthday!! love this man!! some more at 12 am..haha..

oh the presents were all good....other than von and kari one..toothpaste and tooth brush..like i got bad breath like that.. haha Sylvia gave me a LIVERPOOL shirt! love that!!

today went back to CWD to see teachers.. haha not bad la..first time sia..
then went out with those crazy frens of mine.. L4D and dota..crazy..play for donno how many hrs.. i have to pay like 12.70 for that..haha..oh ya and pool!! i 9 ball owning ah!! haha

ok la i wanna stop le la..com so lack..

hope to get a job soon..holiday now..
i miss you.....

Uncle Kracker — Smile lyrics

You're better then the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow, that's right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me,
Lets me know that it's ok, yeah it's ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Even when you're gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Don't know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

where are you.... is this hon wah??

i don't know how to explain this feeling.. like you want someone to be happy and in the mean time while the person is happy enjoying, you over the other corner feeling like a total dumb ass.. cause you are all alone in a 4 walled room feeling lonely and want someone to be there to lean on, hug or rest on cause you feel like a total jerk.. the best part is that you are the one who made yourself end up like that... you made the mess and at the mean while you grieve on it.. feel like getting real wasted but think second thought... it won't solve anything..i will only get drunk, hangover, heartache and nothing between the problem and you is solved..

why would someone love to feel like a total jerk and a useless piece of poo.. think poo also better ah.. can fertilize the soil ah, where as i cant..

Everybody Knows John Legend

It gets harder everyday, but I can't seem to shake the pain.
I'm trying to find the words to say, please stay.
It's written all over my face.
I can't function the same when you're not here.
Calling your name when no one's there.
And I hope one day you'll see nobody has it easy.
I still can't believe you've found somebody new.
But I wish you the best, I guess.

Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows.
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt.
We've heard it all before, that everybody knows just how to make it right.
I wish we gave it one more try.
One more try,
one more try,
one more try,
'Cause everybody knows, nobody really knows.

I don't care what people say, they brought it all in anyway.
Baby don't fill up your head with he-said, she-said.
It seems like you just don't know. (don't know)
The radio's on, you're tuning me out.
I'm trying to speak, you're turning me down.
And I know one day you'll see nobody has it easy.
I still can't believe you've found somebody new.
But I wish you the best, I guess.

Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows.
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt.
We've heard it all before, that everybody knows just how to make it right.
I wish we gave it one more try.
One more try,
one more try,
one more try,
'Cause everybody knows, nobody really knows.

Oh I wish you would understand.
Just an ordinaryman.
I wish that we have known
That everybody knows, that nobody really knows.

And I know one day you'll see nobody has it easy.
I still can't believe you've found somebody new.
But I wish you the best, I guess.

Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows.
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt.
We've heard it all before, that everybody knows just how to make it right.
I wish we gave it one more try.
One more try,
one more try,
one more try.
'Cause everybody knows that nobody really knows.

this song is good..right pam and massy?? haha our clan.....

wow day!!

after so lonnnnnnnnnngggggggggggg..........yesterday was fantastic! great day that i left behind. haha!
ok let me start, when to school late....and when i was on the way up, i got a msg from shamira that today's faci is JOVIN!! wah his class can kill you ah..so we all have this great plan that we wanna zao after 2nd meeting...then all you know is that almost the whole class did la!! only like left 5 person in class.. so proud of W45K!! then i went to recycle 2 old nokia phones!! one mine and the other is my mum and she dont know that i took it..haha..it was said that when i recycle, that they plant tree in indo and then i can look for it in google earth..haha so cool!! cant wait to check it out man!!

ok then after that went on to meet rachel.. we lame lor...we go like from holland v to bishan station and then she got this plan of taking the circle line which we never take before la... haha went from bishan to bartley to marymount..haha then almost went to j8, AMK hub and even thomson!! but in the end to went to bishan there and got milk tea..haha wosh!! that one is the best i ever have and the only one that i actually finished! like got more milk than tea..and what i heard from rachel is that the milk is made from the powder one..haha..then went to central to chill and check out facebook and all..

after that, i went on to orchard to meet gopal and (ben who ps us) to watch 'district 9'. good effect and all but thought that the story line a bit....you know la.. haha gopal thinks that it should be a series than it will be super good...same thinking as him...

basically overall was fun and did things i never done before and go to so many places in a day and then finish my first milk tea also not forgetting that i was very friendly to tha environment..hahahahahaha!!

wow day!!

today was fantastic! great day that i left behind today. haha

thyjk

woah!

it's been real long since i last blog ah... raelly longggggg! you all miss me right?!
my life had been real fun so far.. went up on the net for funny reasons, do funny things, and then gotten something that i was looking for, for more than a year..this is real crazy.. but i'm having fun! there is jus to much to update and say so i shall slowly share my enjoyment time wif you so wait! haha

Flightless Bird, American Mouth

I was a quick wet boy
Diving too deep for coins
All of your straight blind eyes
Wide on my plastic toys
And when the cops closed the fair
I cut my long baby hair
Stole me a dog-eared map
And called for you everywhere

Have I found you?
Flightless bird, jealous, weeping
Or lost you?
American mouth
Big bill looming

Now I'm a fat house cat
Cursing my sore blunt tongue
Watching the warm poison rats
Curl through the wide/white fence cracks
Kissing on magazine photos
Those fishing lures thrown in the cold and clean
Blood of Christ mountain stream

Have I found you?
Flightless bird, brown hair bleeding
Or lost you?
American mouth
Big bill, stuck going down

this song is good when i'm having a looooonnnngggg day............

This is our God

Your grace is enough
More than I need
At Your word I will believe
I wait for You
Draw near again
Let Your Spirit make me new

I will fall at Your feet
I will fall at Your feet
And I will worship You here

Your presence in me
Jesus light the way
By the power of Your word
I am restored
I am redeemed
By Your Spirit I am free

Freely You gave it all for us
Surrendered Your life upon that cross
Great is the love
Poured out for all
This is our God
Lifted on high from death to life
Forever our God is glorified
Servant and King
Rescued the world
This is our God

this is the song that keeps me running now..
the absence of heat is cold, the absence of light is darkness and the absence of YOU is emptyness

我不难过

又站在你家的门口　我们重复沉默　这样子单方面的守候　还能多久
终于你开口向我诉说她有多溫柔　虽然你还握著我的手　但我已不在你心中

我真的懂　你不是喜新厌旧　是我没有　陪在你身边　当你寂寞时候
別再看著我　说著你爱过　別太伤痛　我不难过　这不算什么
只是为什么眼泪会流　我也不懂

就让我走　让我开始享受自由　回憶很多　你的影子也会充滿我生活
我並不懦弱　你比谁都懂　虽然寂寞　这会是我　最后的寬容

抱紧我　再抱紧我　这一份感动　请你让我留在胸口
別在说是你的错　爱到了尽头　是非对错　就让它随风
忘了所有　过得比你快活

我真的懂　你不是喜新厌旧　是我没有　陪在你身边　当你寂寞时候
別再看著我　说著你爱过　別太伤痛　我不难过　这不算什么
只是为什么眼泪会流　我也不懂

不要再说　或許这是最好結果　现在分手　总好过你不爱我一拖再拖
松开你的手　离开你左右　我向前走　这会是我　真正的解脱

i have been listening to this song since yesterday.. haha dont know what is so nice about it though..

guess who is back....

Hey i'm back! back blogging..haha seems like it's super long since my last post..indeed it is very long..like 2 weeks plus haha...ok school is fine so far..kinda find it sian already..cause everyday must do presentation so abit like sian.. but overall, it alright cause i have really awesome classmates ya..they are one bunch of people you would like to hang out with and play..
so long never blog don't know what to say..so i should just stop here for the moment and see if tomorrow i would have time to blog anot..
bye bye..

WOW that's like so long..

Ok long long time no blog..didnt have time, lazy or nothing to say haha..
ok this week i had orientation in RP, it was good and know alot of fantastic people there..fun loving, noisy and all.. i suppose because i'm in SHL the sporty people are there and all..so they are the real noisy people found in school so ya..guess one day i'll be like that too..cause i'm already noisy so expect that from me guys!
not really looking forward to school tomorrow.. ya tomorrow is the first day of school..8.30 start school..lazy to wake up so early..but no choice cause if not my grade will be pulled down by 0.5 and one day i have 4 so cannot really afford to be late everyday or rather cannot be late la..
Good Luck in RP!
ok..this month had been like very up and happy..dont really had lousy days other some days which i'm tired and being pulled to go out..other than that i'm as happy as a gold fish being able to swim in the sea..HAHA!
Easter was good..haha went to GH for worship..erm confession..that day the worship i think was not really good..cause all the songs are slow and i saw that the teenagers were like standing there dead..ya they dont really have reactions and all..so i think it was quite boring for them?
i realise that nowadays i got stuck in talking..as in dont dare to say much things..maybe i siao already haha..
ok i shall stop here..erm hope can get to see my post more cause i quite lazy so ya..hee

Long time no blog..

WOW! for the past 9 days i did not blog..cause i had been very lazy and not willing to and maybe i did not have the time cause half of the time i'm either on the bed or all around the place, so ya..
the week was fine haha..on wednesday, de nian went to work with me and that was his first day of work..haha it had been good so far for him i think..like i'm still teaching him alot of things and he still got alot to learn so ya..ok thursday had cell..topic was SEX haha..and not forgetting i brought a guest,Rachel, again it was a unexpected one..cause all i wanted to do was to drop her and then go for cell but she wanted to drop at cell to say hi and go..so ya..friday went to central's cell ya drop by and see what they do and all..and picked up something after that..then i went back to haven to join gopal..every week i will join him for nite duty..haha..and it seems like i also should get paid for joining him and all..he owe me!
i'm having like a headache? the right side of my head hurts and i dont know what is that but it jus hurt..see doctor? but expensive..haha bo money ah..so we'll have to see how long the pain will last and all la..good luck to me..so long as i dont die..haha!

ok i lazy to carry on..so bye bye!

SUPER HAPPY!!!

ok i just got my NEW LAPTOP! like super happy only..haha today went to cell with Capt Hary and he sent me to sim lim to collect it..the lady was suppose to put on the screen protector for me, but i dont know and then i went off with one myself..upon leaving, i told her i took one and then she got a shock! thinking that i've put it on myself in like 5 mins? haha then i told how i know how to put and quickly rush off cause Capt was waiting and i dont want to keep him..
went for cell and Capt supprised everyone haha! talked bout drinking and had some other topics too.. haha and i got Kenny to put up the protector for and Zarrah and sylvia helped too..and the girls was like crazy over my webcam and wanted to take pictures but haha i dont know how so promised that they will be the first one to be taken by on cam..haha lame rite? but the thing i scared is that after taking, my cam and screen might break..hahahahaha!
ok i have like the whole time to check out my new lappy tomoro..so ya have to like sleep soon cause tomoro got work and i have to help gopal's team to play on sat and that will mean that i muz have enough of sleep..
so good nite and i'll think of a name for her..(laptop)

i found out!

ok today i found out something which i thought it was quite true..ok older people they tend to be very in love with thier husband or wife because they really loved one an other then they get married..but the younger generation people they have a higher chance or higher rate of couples getting divorce and break ups because some of them are together for the wrong reasons or some are force to get married..people like had babies when they are still at the boyfren girlfren stage..ya they tend to fall out more than the others..
Erm all this are not the real stats but it's more of what i see and the people around me la..so you can kinda not worry..haha
this week till now is good so far..and i hope better things coming along..last nite, went for SYOG meeting and talk bout what can we do to help and they helping us..so thought it was a good way of learning something new and a new era of young people revolving in our lives..
tomoro is cell abd looking forward to it! food and fun..FF haha!
ok and i now have to go improve in my music knowledge..haha it was an advice from someone who is better than me..obvious!
ok i wanna eat my maggi!
BYE!

today i receive a call from my mum and she scolded me... ya my fault..like always..in her eyes la..sometime i'm wondering if she understand that her son is not having a good life as she thinks and he is trying to support himself without her to spend a single cent..but..

no mood to blog today...spoiled by my mum's scolding..

Not working..

Haiz..today is the second day in a week that i did not go to work..tomorrow will be the third..first day, was because my uniform was not ready and i dont have a second pair so i never go..today and tomorrow is because my leg is in pain i could not walk properly, and as i'm working in a cafe, i have to serve and walk around so i cant really go to work..

Today was quite bored though..went to east coast with haven and played mini golf..wow that almost took my life..cause we had to walk from hole to hole and lucky most of the time i was holding on to the put..haha..i used it as a walking stick..quite cute la..and i found out that i really cannot play golf, or rather mini golf i would say..and it is very boring when you play with the wrong kind of people who plays cheat..haha as if i did not..haha

today there's nothing much to long for cause today got no cell..and normally when thursday comes, we will be like whoa! cause friday is near and so do the weekends haha..so actually today dont feel like it is thursday to me..

Quite happy for the boys in haven in the Teen Games performance..the U15 got into the semi finals but lost there..but still not bad cause last year they never even hit for the knock out rounds..also tomorrow will the the U19 boys who are playing..they are also through to the knock out rounds..haha not bad la..we'll see of the boys can be like us last year went to the finals..not trying to boast here..the truth is...if they can go to the semis..they are consider as not bad..as the team is not very together..as in the passes and all so ya..but still ALL THE BEST!

Friday..have no plans of going anywhere..so maybe i'll find something to do and spend the night..

Good nite people!

hey! i feel good talking to you..hope you feel the same way too!

suay..

tell you..i super suay yesterday i injured my shoulder..today i got my ankle injured..like super suay..then the both time also super pain..
dont know why i like lazy to blog this few days..haha
sorry really very lazy..
so i ending here..
BYE!

oh..

Thursday cell was good and the food too like usual..didnt really have cell cause kor kor Marcus was not well so ya..but we had a good laugh out the heart..
Friday..work and had headache if i should go church or not..but in the end i went to church..haha
watch a movie there and the title is "Fireproof" great show! really good! this reminds me of what gopal always say to me..man can play with fire but not fireproof..haha..the show is about divorce and the guy trying to save the marriage and at the same time found God..haha go watch it it's good.. Then i went back to haven to pei gopal...
Saturday...mistaken that the IT show starts at 9 so i went there with major and then at there we found out that it only start at 12.. :( so we went back to the corps and waited..then went over there at 12..got the laptop! major brought it for me cause i pass my o's haha it was a reward cause she did not expect that i will pass..ya you guys too dont believe rite? haha
In the nite i rush back to haven after supper? haha went back in a cab and i did not regret spending the money cause MAN U got trash by LIVERPOOL! 4-1! they lost at home! ok i shall not say it anymore before i get chase by man u fans haha..
sunday...ya you guys know my routine..church then work till 9..haha
tis week is full of enjoy i think..and not enough sleep..everyday sleep at 3 or later..but i'm ok with it cause i still get my sleep till like 10 in the morning..so not that bad..if not you'll see panda in action..haha
ok stop for the moment..
carry on later or tomorrow..

I think life has got so much of different surprises that will surprise youeveryday, and everyday there's something new to share and talk about with one another..
today aws good but only in the morning, i went to NUS for nothing..cause my manager ask me go there take something from that outlet..but when i go there, the manager tgere said that he pass the thing to the food supplier so i have to go there and take nothing! long walk up and down! then before i go work, i rested in haven first..haha
my leg super pain..it hurts like hell! blister and swell..
too bad for me..

time wasted? i dont think so

today work was good..didint have like super alot of things to do and ya so today can be counted as fine, at work.

today i just found out that people out there will surely try and fulfil what they want in life..no matter how much you explain or even complain they will want to do what they want..the thing is i dont think i watsted my time trying to help and trying get things into his or her mind..cause i believe that one day he or she will understand me and what i've tried to help..

Lenin promise to give the Russian people land, peace and bread and he did..

Honwah tried to give love, perseverance and bread...but he failed badly :( so he now got no choice but to keep it..maybe justin would had been the better choice ya?



so much of history..

i wanna end here..

sorry..

what a day!

WOW! today was crazy at work..started at 9 am and i never had a chance to like really sit down and rest till the shop close! i'm in all this cause the full timer is on MC.. :( but lucky got someone from another outlet came and help so not that bad after all..if not i would had like be dead now..haha but still...horrible day for everyone..rain the whole day..but the temp is just nice..good for sleeping..hahaha!!
tomoro i have to wake up early to send one kid to school..like that means cut sleeping time..oh too bad for me!
Tomoro good luck and all the best for Lee Hon Wah cause he might end up in "A and E"! (hong kong way of speaking)

oh...

Last few days was busy..firstly on thursday, CELL!! had a great time and ended like super late and went back super late too..haha
Friday was the staff dinner..haha went there to do the sound like the other years..and had a good time there and saw people there who i havent seen for long and met some new frens..haha
saturday i was the morning in haven very tired cause didnt really sleep but lucky the boys never really give me problem so not that bad..but i dont think they even dare to cause me and gopal was there so they cant do much though..
today.....long day and only can go back at 9..tomorrow start work at 9..haiz..muz wake up early..hate that! i wanna sleep!!! pig is not the word for me cause i really very tired and dont have enough sleep..what to do..
What to do??

i'm not sorry...

All this time I was wasting,

Hoping you would come around

I've been givin' out chances every time

And all you do is let me down

And it's taken me this long baby

But I figured you out

And you think it would be fine again

But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore

I won't pick up the phone

This is the last straw

Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can tell me that you're sorry

But I don't believe you baby,

Like I did before

You're not sorry.

Oh no, no, no

Looking so innocent,

I might believe you if I didn't know

Could've loved you all my life

If you hadn't left me waitin' in the cold

And you got to share your secrets

And I'm tired of being last to know

And now you're asking me to listen

Cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore

I won't pick up the phone

This is the last straw

Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can tell me that you're sorry

But I don't believe you baby,

Like I did before

You're not sorry.

No, no, Oh.

You're not sorry.

No, no, Oh.

You had me crawling for you honey

And it never would have gone away, no

You used to shine so bright,

But I watched all of it fade

So you don't have to call anymore

I won't pick up the phone

This is the last straw

There's nothing left to beg for

And you can tell me that you're sorry

But I don't believe you baby,

Like I did before

You're not sorry.

No, no, Oh.

You're not sorry.

No, no. Oh.

Taylor Swift - You're Not Sorry

i know you wanna sing this.. :)